Memory
Forgotten Life
- Joined
- Nov 30, 2012
- Location
- Forgotten World
Gonna meet Vio today
I just.. really want to lock myself up in my room, and never ever talk to anyone forever. I don't know. I really am sick of going out from my house and do stuff. I'm not saying that I'm lazy.. but.. I just.. really want to shut myself down forever, and rot myself in the room by crying alone. Honestly though, why can't there be a day where I can shut myself down just for a day? I don't feel like myself too much anymore.
I just.. really want to lock myself up in my room, and never ever talk to anyone forever. I don't know. I really am sick of going out from my house and do stuff. I'm not saying that I'm lazy.. but.. I just.. really want to shut myself down forever, and rot myself in the room by crying alone. Honestly though, why can't there be a day where I can shut myself down just for a day? I don't feel like myself too much anymore.
I just.. really want to lock myself up in my room, and never ever talk to anyone forever. I don't know. I really am sick of going out from my house and do stuff. I'm not saying that I'm lazy.. but.. I just.. really want to shut myself down forever, and rot myself in the room by crying alone. Honestly though, why can't there be a day where I can shut myself down just for a day? I don't feel like myself too much anymore.
I just.. really want to lock myself up in my room, and never ever talk to anyone forever. I don't know. I really am sick of going out from my house and do stuff. I'm not saying that I'm lazy.. but.. I just.. really want to shut myself down forever, and rot myself in the room by crying alone. Honestly though, why can't there be a day where I can shut myself down just for a day? I don't feel like myself too much anymore.
Look, Violet, I know life sucks for you right now, but moping around isn't going to solve anything. Being sad, sitting alone in your room, and crying until you feel better is only a temporary solution to a serious problem. If the people at school are bothering you, ignore them. If sitting in solitude makes you feel more secure -- maybe even happier -- then do so. Ignore their glances, glares, and stares, they shouldn't affect you the way that they do. If they taunt you or pick on you, look them dead in the eye and tell them to cut it out. Reach out to people, make new friends. There's no reason why you should be sad, especially at a young, fun-loving age of 12. Seriously, get out there and be happy that you're still breathing. That, even if the world turns against you, you still have yourself. Believe in yourself before you believe in others, because you'll start listening to their lies instead of your heart screaming at you to hold onto hope.
Vio, we all go through times where we can't see ourselves in any other place than we are now. It's hard to move on and we want to imagine that we can just be in one place forever and all of our problems will go away. You're young, and being young is harder than it's made out to be. The world seems so big yet you feel like you are encaged by the forces around you.
If you sit in the shaded corner of that cage, nobody who can unlock that cage will ever see you. You may see yourself as a helpless cub right now, but one day you will be a lion whose roar could be heard from the other side of the world. It's your choice in the end whether or not you want to find that roar, but for now remember that there are those of us out there who have our keys at the ready for the day to come when your roar is at it's strongest. Dear god...is this what that Katy Perry song was about?
Violet, I don't know what you're facing right now but you gotta believe in yourself, that lunatic-happy-go-lucky girl. Open up yourself to the world. Don't cry or mop around in your room. That will not make you feel better. But if it's about the school incident, I can relate a bit to my life. If you want to be alone, no one's gonna stop you from doing what you want but being alone doesn't mean that you have to shut the world out. You don't have to shut everybody out. Just ignore them though I know that you can't ignore them. But try to. Remember, there are people who'll open up their arms wide for you-- and they already did, even now. These people love you for who you are. And if the people at school bully you again, pft, their lies, their false assumptions, their own sins. And you have to remember the words I told you. Whenever a burden or obstacles fall onto you, those are merely the challenges from Him. He's testing your patience. How strong your will is. You can't give up half-way. We're still young. Believe in yourself because He believes in you. Just don't give up yet.
My past still annoys me...
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