Night Owl
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Going camping this weekend ^^
He was posting hentai and that's why he got banned.
Okay. I am very frustrated, angry, really, REALLY down and I feel like I've been pushed to a pit of tar and mud, then get stepped by people until I feel rotten.
At school break, the mentally disabled girl ( I'm actually really close to her now since the day we met) tried to sit down at my table but wow, just, WOW, the people who were sitting around me started to give weird faces at her and tried to look away from her. I actually wanted to do something but I was scared that this classmate of mine will try to bother me. When the girl told me that she wanted to buy more food, the guy who sat beside her kicked away her chair and laughed. I was starting to get really tensed up. They started to talk trash behind her and I just.. Agh. It's really, really really REALLY ANNOYING CAN I JUST MAKE THEM STOP??? no unfortunately I can't because the girl beside me said that if I don't talk trash behind her she would blackmail me. Literally. So I was just scared to stood up for her ( you guys will hate me for saying this ;-; ). When she came back and saw her seat gone, she looked really, really sad. But the others were laughing. She knew the guy kicked the chair, but the guy didn't want to admit. When I said to her that I'm about to go and patrol the school (since I'm kinda a prefect and all), the girl who sat beside me said "no one cares about your stupid activity you little attention idiot". I didn't say anything after that because there were tears in my eyes.
Like, why the heck should you talk trash to a human being? It doesn't really matter and just because that the person isn't like the other person, why should you bother them more? It disgusts me. It makes me sick. The whole Form 1 students who knows her seems to talk trash behind her. Some just pretend that she doesn't exist. Even some of the teachers think that way.
And even people think that she's forcing me to be friends her? AND EVEN SOME PEOPLE IN MY CLASS ARE SAYING THAT I AM BULLYING HER? WHAT? WHAT KIND OF FREAKING HECK OF NONSENSE IS THAT???? WHAT KIND? WHY THE HECK WOULD YOU SAY THAT I'M A FREAKING BULLY?? AND WHAT, EVEN TEACHERS THINK OF THIS TOO??????? Because of these rumors and nonsense I've been called names. I'm sick and tired of people like these. I've been forced to ignore her too. And not only it hurts her a lot, but it hurts me a lot too.
Some people even asked me: "Wow, you can even stand her personality? She's annoying, don't you know? She's not even hygienic and she can't even speak correctly. She acts like a five year old."
But her response in all of this:
"It's okay. I'm used to these kinds of stuff. I can stand up by my own too... so don't worry. But if I can't take it anymore, I'll remember to find you. Bad friends are bad. Even though I stayed away from them they're still gonna come back. Good friends don't help at all, even though they're nice. They're just gonna pretend that nothing happened.. that's how society works. But you're different."
I really bet that most of you guys will hate my guts for typing this vent out.
People panic and don't know what to do sometimes. I mean, bullying is going to happen sometimes; it's the sad truth. At least you're her friend. It lets her know that there are people who like her and don't care whether she is different. It lets her know that there are good people out there. ^^
Okay. I am very frustrated, angry, really, REALLY down and I feel like I've been pushed to a pit of tar and mud, then get stepped by people until I feel rotten.
At school break, the mentally disabled girl ( I'm actually really close to her now since the day we met) tried to sit down at my table but wow, just, WOW, the people who were sitting around me started to give weird faces at her and tried to look away from her. I actually wanted to do something but I was scared that this classmate of mine will try to bother me. When the girl told me that she wanted to buy more food, the guy who sat beside her kicked away her chair and laughed. I was starting to get really tensed up. They started to talk trash behind her and I just.. Agh. It's really, really really REALLY ANNOYING CAN I JUST MAKE THEM STOP??? no unfortunately I can't because the girl beside me said that if I don't talk trash behind her she would blackmail me. Literally. So I was just scared to stood up for her ( you guys will hate me for saying this ;-; ). When she came back and saw her seat gone, she looked really, really sad. But the others were laughing. She knew the guy kicked the chair, but the guy didn't want to admit. When I said to her that I'm about to go and patrol the school (since I'm kinda a prefect and all), the girl who sat beside me said "no one cares about your stupid activity you little attention idiot". I didn't say anything after that because there were tears in my eyes.
Like, why the heck should you talk trash to a human being? It doesn't really matter and just because that the person isn't like the other person, why should you bother them more? It disgusts me. It makes me sick. The whole Form 1 students who knows her seems to talk trash behind her. Some just pretend that she doesn't exist. Even some of the teachers think that way.
And even people think that she's forcing me to be friends her? AND EVEN SOME PEOPLE IN MY CLASS ARE SAYING THAT I AM BULLYING HER? WHAT? WHAT KIND OF FREAKING HECK OF NONSENSE IS THAT???? WHAT KIND? WHY THE HECK WOULD YOU SAY THAT I'M A FREAKING BULLY?? AND WHAT, EVEN TEACHERS THINK OF THIS TOO??????? Because of these rumors and nonsense I've been called names. I'm sick and tired of people like these. I've been forced to ignore her too. And not only it hurts her a lot, but it hurts me a lot too.
Some people even asked me: "Wow, you can even stand her personality? She's annoying, don't you know? She's not even hygienic and she can't even speak correctly. She acts like a five year old."
But her response in all of this:
"It's okay. I'm used to these kinds of stuff. I can stand up by my own too... so don't worry. But if I can't take it anymore, I'll remember to find you. Bad friends are bad. Even though I stayed away from them they're still gonna come back. Good friends don't help at all, even though they're nice. They're just gonna pretend that nothing happened.. that's how society works. But you're different."
I really bet that most of you guys will hate my guts for typing this vent out.
This week is too long, and I still have two more days. Does anyone else just get tired of living sometimes?? Like, nothing particular is depressing you, yet you feel you need to take a brake from literally everything...
Every girl in my class seems to hate my existence. I can hear "look at her, being all snobby. she has an ego of a high class pig". Everyone gave me bad looks and started to whisper about me. I'm not needed to everyone and it's useless if I try. So why should I?
I can't do anything... but hey, I do deserve it. It's no point on ruining anyone's happiness. I'm pathetic and useless. Rotten people like me should rot away from life...