Mellow Ezlo
Spoony Bard
I've been in a weird depressive state the past few weeks; weird as in I don't really know what brought it on and, by all rights, I should be happy.
I tell myself it's 5 months of quarantine getting to me, coupled with a lousy job and somewhat pessimistic outlook for the future but there's probably something deeper going on psychologically that's causing this. Maybe it's to do with past traumas and a history of mental abuse that recently resurfaced in my mind, or maybe I'm overthinking it and it really is as simple as quarantine getting to me. Either way, I want to be able to feel happy again and thought returning to work would have helped but if anything it's just made it worse, despite the people I work with being genuinely fun people to be around.
I tried online therapy. I had a session with a psychologist over zoom a few days ago but it ended up being fairly inconclusive, so now what? Do I just continue doing what I've been doing day after day and hope that I start feeling some semblance of happiness again? My classes are starting again next week so maybe having something to do every day will be good, but time will tell I suppose.
I tell myself it's 5 months of quarantine getting to me, coupled with a lousy job and somewhat pessimistic outlook for the future but there's probably something deeper going on psychologically that's causing this. Maybe it's to do with past traumas and a history of mental abuse that recently resurfaced in my mind, or maybe I'm overthinking it and it really is as simple as quarantine getting to me. Either way, I want to be able to feel happy again and thought returning to work would have helped but if anything it's just made it worse, despite the people I work with being genuinely fun people to be around.
I tried online therapy. I had a session with a psychologist over zoom a few days ago but it ended up being fairly inconclusive, so now what? Do I just continue doing what I've been doing day after day and hope that I start feeling some semblance of happiness again? My classes are starting again next week so maybe having something to do every day will be good, but time will tell I suppose.