So yesterday I got a text from an old friend saying "How is it going with finding a place to stay in Gothenburg?". I was happy she asked, she must really care.
It was, 11:12, and I was so busy finishing up my TLoU part II blog, listened to some music as well as making lunch, so I didn't reply until 15:13, and then she said "oh, we're moving out and needed someone to move in quickly, but it got solved during the day."
Meaning, that had I replied earlier, they might've picked me instead, or so I took it what she meant.
Now I feel infinitely stupid, idiotic and I feel like I just missed out in a life-changing opportunity just because I paid more attention to a stupid ****ing blog instead.
At the same time, I also feel that it's not the blog's fault, because had it been 2 months earlier, I would probably have jumped on the text immediately. But it feels like I'm so desensitized to everything right now. I know moving will make me feel better, but it's like I'm not into it, because I feel so depressed all the time, and I'm depressed because I'm stuck here, so it kinda loops.