I need... a drink... or something... something strong... idk... perhaps all I need is... some good... stuff...
NO, stay away, stay away, stay away. It's been more than 2 years, don't let it take you back!
Can't resist though...
I need... need... need...
I need nothing. No. Resist. Don't go back. Keep going while you're ahead.
But I want...
I can't... 2 years... don't need... but I do need... stress relief... always worked before...
But I... idk... this is the first time in over a year that I've felt this way, why is it coming back now? It was 2 years ago, it's over now. Why do I want? I need... uhnnnnnnnnnn.........
No, I promised myself I wouldn't return to that life. I made a pledge. But now... idk. It's all coming back. Such a bad time... Have I finally cracked?
Perhaps I should just sleep this off... seems like the right thing to do.