Thank you for your advice and support. I do try to talk to my family about how I'm feeling, but I don't tell them all the dark thoughts I have, for fear of how they'll react (will they think I'm crazy or just tryin to get attention?). I'm not sure I have anyone who I trust fully and who I can...
I wish whatever's causing me to be depressed would just go away already. The past few weeks have been rather rough for me...I've cried a lot more than usual, and just felt so much more pain than I used to. I do have times when I'm happy and things seem okay, but it seems that most of the time...
We have a fairly quiet Fourth of July weekend planned, with just a big meal on Monday and a baseball game with fireworks on Sunday, but I'm still looking forward to it. :)
I hope all of 2016 is less eventful for me than December 2015 was. Two operations, a bowel obstruction, and a poorly-healing incision all in one month...enough said.
(I think I'm on the mend now, hopefully I'm right about that.)
I was just remembering one of my first forum experiences four years ago, on a now-dead forum. We could request name changes anytime we wanted if we PM'd an admin. I had picked a name that at first was an interesting word, but later proved to be very embarrassing for me to bear. So I asked to...
To be honest, my mind is blank now. It's been full of so many thoughts and emotions today, but now it's drained. Too many overwhelming thoughts and feelings.
I can't express it fully...but the pain and the loneliness are unbearable....never thought moving on could be so hard......
Just stop the hurt for one day. Is that too much to ask for????