Not really a confession, but I guess it kind of is.
Mez you are a good guy and a good friend to many. You've made mistakes, everybody has, but you have a good conscience and good heart I'm glad you're putting it behind you for the better.
I guess it's time for me to make a confession even though well everyone knows about it already but hey
A lot of people have a really negative impression of me and don't get me wrong, I understand why. I am extremely hard to like sometimes. Over the past few years there have been times when I have been really quite mentally ill and during those times I am a different person. I have no control over anything I say or do at times because everything seems to just turn on its head. I have suffered from severe depression, severe anxiety and I am coming to accept some form of PTSD. As some people may know, I was sexually assaulted once. I've kind of pretended to myself for years that I'm fine but I'm not really. Sometimes when I think about it I want to cry and sometimes when I am trying to have sex with someone who isn't trying to abuse me, like my boyfriend, I can't. Its kind of embarrassing but I have a condition which makes me close up "down there". Sometimes I still get flashbacks and I can't feel anything emotionally at all. It's affected a lot.
I suppose with everything I went through as a child too (I won't put everything) there have been times when my brain has been like "that's enough" and then I fall apart. I've gotten a lot better and I think you guys on the forum can probably tell. Lately I have had some setbacks but I start therapy soon. Accepting I need help after so many years was hard but I'm hoping to get better. I regret so many things that I've said and done. I try really hard now not to take it out on other people. I just wanted people to know I was working on it.