Seriously thinking about throwing all of my hits away and jumping out of Carlisle Hall. This life is ridiculous. If I fail (and I will fail) to get into med school, my life will become worse than it already is. If I do get into med school and fail there, I have student loans to pay off. If I get a PhD and become a Doctor and all that ****, what if I accidentally kill someone? Seriously. This life is disgusting. You people are disgusting. You're cold, brash, crass, and bold to a fault. You don't care about anyone but yourselves. And that's justified, but it's still ****ing disgusting.