I believe in fate, I also believe things happen for a reason. I also believe that there's people in our lives for a reason, rather to build you up or tear you down. Each of them helps build certain characters in yourself, and the ability to be strong or weak. The things that happen and the people you meet, in the end will get you where your suppose to be.
that's what's I was raised on, but it was also my choice to believe it. I've been through countless times of being so close to homeless, and I mean with in just a couple days of it. My mom and I, or my roommate when I left home, would pray and keep faith that something would turn up. And in the end before the worse, things always turned out the best.
when I was 8, I had been told I couldn't have kids. I had a lot of medical problems, and still do. When I was 6, I had decided I wanted to adopt a child, and when I was told that I couldn't have my own I was ok with it just for the fact I had already planned adoption. So I grew up with that decision just fine. Well when I tried to have my first intimate time with my husband, we found out something was wrong down below. Turns out I need reconstructive surgery, which we have scheduled May of this year. But we also found out from my ob/gyn that it is very possible for me to have a child of my own. Which in the last few years has been something I really wanted.
So what I believe here, is that had I not waited and begun sexual activities before then I may have ended up a mom to young. Yes I would've had the surgery before now and not had to suffer through the pain I'm constantly in, but being a young mom is not my idea of a good thing. (although I know plenty of young moms who have done good with their lives since and proud to say they're my best friend.) I'm glad I chose to wait, though I had plenty of times I could've and almost gave in, and be with the man I'm with today. Fate brought us together I believe. To be with someone who's understanding, caring and patient. We have been together almost 4 years now, married for almost a year (Feb. 19th is our anniversary) through all this he has been patient and loving, and staying by my side through this all even though we can't have a intimate relationship till I have that surgery. When most guys I guys I know, wouldn't wait around for it.
all that and more it was has kept my faith in believing things happen for a reason. That God has set a plan for us in life. We do make are own choices, but in the end we find that path he wanted us to be on.