That’s a… good question
No, I don’t think it’s just meant to be shared, having fun with it does matter I just wish to share it because I want others to be able to also read my story and see what they think, I want a good message that I hope maybe could inspire others or it’s something people can relate to
But I just have low confidence about it all, it gets to me in my head, and replaces me having fun writing the story to making me feel like I need everything about it to be perfect and makes me worry about how edgy the story feels or how forced the writing is or if the story is something that…it is just bad
My negative feelings and my worry of what others think gets to me all the time, it cancels out my positive feelings or just doing stuff for fun. I constantly get voices in my head, that make me think “oh what are they thinking?” or make think of something bad I did in the last that I can’t forgive myself for, which goes back to me not liking myself. I think that is the root cause of my problems